What Happens When We Stop Lying?

Hello Truth Seekers!

You know that feeling you get when you finally tell the truth about something that you have been lying about or keeping to yourself? It is a very freeing feeling and oh boy does it do wonders for your mind and body. Also, once you told the truth, was the outcome better than you expected? It seems things are never really as bad as we make them out to be in our minds. Have you ever said to yourself, “I should have send something sooner, Why did I live with this torture for so long, or Wow, I was expecting things to go much worse!”

Truth Sets Us Free!

Imagine trying this same concept for the lies we tell ourselves about our relationships, work, and cultural norms. Sometimes we don’t see the lies we tell ourselves as equal to the lies we carry for others, but they all have the same heaviness and do the same damage.

In this last year, I have been trying to untangle many of the lies I tell myself and trying to seek my truth. I left a job I loved in many ways that fulfilled my need to help others and my need to feel I was making a difference, but it also left me completely exhausted in every aspect. It was not an easy decision and came with many mixed emotions.

Do I regret my decision? No

Change is hard and going against what society expects of you is challenging. This decision has led me in a new direction and will hopefully continue to lead me in the right direction towards my integrity. I’m climbing a mountain but with the knowledge that I am seeking my truth. And it feels good to know that I am actively making changes in the direction of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I am also mourning my known misery. I miss so many aspects of my job and the relationships I had with students and co-workers. This is all part of the journey and I deserve to give those feelings the time and space to grieve. There are always things you lose with change but there are also things you gain.

When we are making these changes and working towards our truths, there are some people who will try to shame or blame us for trying to disrupt the cultural rules that are so ingrained in our society. Keep in mind that it is their insecurities, envy, fear, etc that is driving them to act this way. Keep going and remember it is not a personal attack on us. Try thinking it from this perspective, the person whose attacks upset us the most is always showing us the next step on the way of integrity. In those moments, (1) Try to observe what is happening inside - What do you feel? Why is this attack feeling so bad? (2) Question thoughts - Is what they are saying true? Why is their statement more real than what I think? Do they deserve my reaction or anger? (3) Make the conscious decision to move away from anger/fear/frustration/destruction and follow the way of integrity. Remember your creative voice and thoughts are your best defense to keep you moving towards your truth.

So as I continue on my journey of seeking my truth and living with integrity, I leave you with some honest thoughts. I live with many emotions everyday about my journey and I feel comforted that my grief, my questioning of my decisions, my acceptance, my feelings of peace, my feeling of lightness, etc are all happening at the same time and in different order. This is all part of the process. I am taking a step forward everyday and feeling all the wonderful changes and feeling all the struggles and it is all beautiful. ❤️